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jcole 📌 17 days ago (edited) • 18 views
hey people on darflen again after my 5 day (?) break i forgot, here’s post number 384, not like it matters

lately, I’ve been struggling with the whole “why bother” question when it comes to posting. every time I drop something, it just kinda sits there, untouched, unnoticed, like it never existed. zero engagement, no feedback, just me staring at the screen wondering if I’m wasting my time.

which, honestly, makes sense. I don’t follow anyone, don’t engage, just post into the void and hope something sticks. but it still sucks. putting effort into something only for it to feel like shouting into an empty room.

it’s not even about going viral or getting tons of attention. just some kind of recognition that what I’m doing exists. but nah, every time it’s the same story. and with every post that flops, motivation gets lower and lower, until I start questioning why I even bother at all.

not saying I’m quitting, but yeah, it’s hard to keep pushing forward when nothing ever changes. anyway, that’s where I’m at right now. maybe I’ll figure it out, maybe I won’t. who knows.

part 2 because i wanted to expand

but here’s the real issue to me. while i sit here agonizing over effort vs. results, i see people posting whatever. blurry photos, half-baked thoughts, vague ramblings that barely make sense, and somehow they still get something. a couple likes. a random comment. just some indication that people saw it, even if they barely processed it.

so what am i doing wrong? is it too much effort that’s the problem? should i start dropping nonsense and hope for the best? maybe engagement isn’t about polish or thoughtfulness. maybe it’s just being there, constantly, like a background noise that people eventually start noticing.

meanwhile, qxva is out here churning out nonsense daily like it’s a form of high art, acting like he’s the backbone of this platform because he happens to post more than anyone else. spamming the feed like it’s his personal diary and then patting himself on the back for being "the most active." as if sheer volume equals value.

which would make sense. posting low-effort stuff is easier, faster, less emotionally taxing. it’s not tied to expectations, just existence. no overthinking, no hesitation, just throwing things out and moving on.

but is that what i want? do i want to contribute to the endless scroll of meaningless content? maybe. maybe not. depends on the day.

for now, i’ll keep doing what i do, even if it feels like screaming into the void. but if you’re someone who posts the equivalent of a blurry picture of your cat and still gets engagement, what’s the secret?
jcole 1 year ago • 4 views
amoled mode preinstalled
jcole 1 year ago • 6 views
kanye has not posted
jcole 1 year ago (edited) • 5 views
jinx is almost 24 we need to give them a
jcole 1 year ago • 6 views
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jcole 1 year ago • 1 view
paradock rizz app when
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jcole 1 year ago • 2 views
why believe you? you never gave us anything to believe in
jcole 1 year ago • 12 views
how do i get verified
jcole 1 year ago (edited) • 2 views
Part Three?

there are many ways to deal with this pain

~~choose wisely~~
jcole 1 year ago • 3 views
1 like in 2 hours ive fallen off
jcole 1 year ago (edited) • 4 views
the abusive narcissist flowchart:

why did you do x?

[explain yourself] -> "stop giving excuses!"

[don't explain yourself] -> "see? you can't even explain yourself!"

[realising both a and b are bad answers, say 'i don't know'] -> "of course you know, stop lying!"

[point out the fact nothing you can say will be enough for them] -> "don't talk back to me!"

[having gone through this entire process hundreds of times in your childhood, simply dissociate and stare into the middle distance] -> "don't you dare ignore me!"

[apologise for whatever they believe you did, even though you don't feel like you have a reason to apologise] -> "sorry isn't good enough!"

[don't apologise] -> "aren't you even sorry?!"
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