And if im trying to kill myself
Why?
What did I do to deserve being the worst person i know?
Why do I have to be the bad guy in everyone's life?
I always wanted to be the best person everybody knows but this, this is me?
Why me? I'm personally annoyed that out of all people I had to be the person who says the bad things the person everyone used to love the person everyone hates.
Mom and Dad keep saying "oh he sabotages his life" most of their examples are wrong but they were and always were right.
I've sabotaged my whole life and I just have to sit here and think about all the horrible things I said.
What am I supposed to do? Cry? Cry about the fact it was me who said I wanted to kill a 5 year old, Cry about the fact that I said I liked preteens, Cry about my transphobic remarks.
Everyone was always right about me I never changed.
Everyone saw different pieces of me and hated me for them but nobody actually seen the full picture and I don't think I want anyone to see that.
Because it just shows im a worthless stupid 15 year old who ruined everything for nothing.
Nothing.
Why?
What did I do to deserve being the worst person i know?
Why do I have to be the bad guy in everyone's life?
I always wanted to be the best person everybody knows but this, this is me?
Why me? I'm personally annoyed that out of all people I had to be the person who says the bad things the person everyone used to love the person everyone hates.
Mom and Dad keep saying "oh he sabotages his life" most of their examples are wrong but they were and always were right.
I've sabotaged my whole life and I just have to sit here and think about all the horrible things I said.
What am I supposed to do? Cry? Cry about the fact it was me who said I wanted to kill a 5 year old, Cry about the fact that I said I liked preteens, Cry about my transphobic remarks.
Everyone was always right about me I never changed.
Everyone saw different pieces of me and hated me for them but nobody actually seen the full picture and I don't think I want anyone to see that.
Because it just shows im a worthless stupid 15 year old who ruined everything for nothing.
Nothing.
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Paradock 7 months agodon't kill yourself -
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